What a week

It's been quite a week here at the Holder household. Last Sunday Courtney decided that she was beyond napping. I mean, at 9 1/2 weeks old, she's clearly mature enough to make that decision on her own. Anyway, her lack of a nap led us to a couple of nights with extreme screaming and exhaustion. She was so over tired that she wouldn't fall asleep until midnight, 1 or 2am. On top of that, she seems to be having a growth spurt of sorts and is eating constantly. She's gotten over her hatred of the nap, and has decided that perhaps she likes the nap after all but she still isn't sleeping well at night. As a matter of fact, she's gone from waking me once a night to 2 or even 3 times a night. So much for progress.

Paul and I are trying to figure out what I should do with myself now that I'm unemployed and enjoying being a stay at home mom. We bought our house as a dual income family so we can't really afford to live here and only have one income. We can afford for me to stay at home for a while but at some point I would have to go back to work if we stay in this house. The alternative is for us to sell the house and live in a house where we can survive on one income. We'd probably lose our shirts on this house if we sold it. And the thought of packing and moving makes me almost physically ill. However, the thought of staying home with my baby girl would make it all worth it. Dilemma dilemma.