I'm not pregnant....

After my last post, that very night, I got my period. I guess I'm not pregnant. I mean, I'm not surprised by that but I'm a little sad and disappointed. I've imagined myself with a baby. I've pictured what it would be like for Paul and I to have a little family with a little baby. I can kind of imagine the sleepless nights and the nasty diapers. It will be so much easier to imagine when I know there's a baby in my stomach. I'm trying not to get ahead of myself but it's hard, it's hard not to think about all the time.

Am I Pregnant?

For starters, my stomach could not be more topsy-turvy. I think I'm either pregnant or lactose intolerant. Those are the only explanations I have for what's wrong with my stomach.

I've had headaches.

I've been nauseous.

Oh, and I didn't get my cycle. I should have gotten it last weekend but I didn't. There was a little something but spotting isn't uncommon when you're pregnant. So I could be pregnant, but I doubt it. I mean, what are the odds that we'd get pregnant in the first month? I've been on the pill for almost 20 years so it's only normal that my cycle would be all out of wack. Right?

I'm trying not to get too excited so I won't be disappointed if I am pregnant. I'd also like to think I'm so fat because I'm pregnant but that's just me being silly. I did that all on my own. I'm pretty sure if I take an EPT, it will be negative. But I guess I'm supposed to wait a few more days before I take one. Maybe I'll take it Thursday. I think what would be hugely crazy is that if I was pregnant, I'd be 5 weeks already!

Baby Talk Takes Over

It's amazing to me the number of people who ask if I'm pregnant. And really, if I were pregnant, I wouldn't tell you anyway. It's pretty safe to say that we won't tell you until the first trimester is over.

It's pretty overwhelming the number of conversations I've had about babies lately. Before we started talking about kids, I never had a conversation about sleep and diapers and babies. I was around for a few but never really contributed to any. And now, they are everywhere. Baby this and baby that. And I don't even have a baby. I guess we're at that stage in life where people are either having kids, thinking about kids, or maybe just paying more attention